>>16347The self hatred is real, but in my recent adventure I learned that such hatred may only be locally induced, once I visited other areas of my country it dissappeared, the problem lies whitin my immediate community.
Whitin my lack of connection to it.
I have managed to classify my origin city as a prison from which one must escape, as it is the residence of my progenitors I cannot fight against it.
In the past I would resign myself to the world behind the screen but as age catches up with me such escapism becomes hard to hold on to.
I cannot remain a purely memetic entity, but I cannot disassociate from such a nature as my individuality and the screen persona have become intertwined.